i am so glad you exist, even if you exist so far away from me
my mom’s boyfriend is this 6’2 super buff macho dude with many facial piercings who enjoys death metal and i just came downstairs and found him crying because they had to put down a dog on animal cops
i like him
every time we would want to go outside and adventure with each other,it would rain randomly. rainy days were our thing. and now i barely see a cloud in the sky.
i’m sorry that i’m all complainy all the time about this boy but he’s the first thing i think about when i wake up and i think about him at night before i go to bed and its been like this for almost a year and it just makes me so fucking sad that he will never be mine again and he thinks that i am over him,because if he knew how i really felt,he’d never talk to me. he pushed me away when i told him how i felt and he didn’t feel the same way anymore. i care so much about him and it isn’t fair anymore. i just. its impossible for me to like anyone for a while because he is always on my mine and i just want to be with him. but i cant. so i quote La Dispute,”If i cannot love you as a lover,I will love you as a friend” but just now. he told me he was waiting for his date to get there and its tearing me apart. I want to be that date. thats supposed be me he thinks about me like i think about him. it makes me so fucking sad but when i see him,i forget that it makes me sad because he makes me happy. i dont know ..but i just am sad not being with him but am happy being with him even though he isn’t mine. i don’t even know what i am anymore.
me: hey can i have some money?
bank teller: do you have an account with us?
me: nah i just heard yall got money
(brushes crumbs off bed) yea baby hop on in
DONT GO THRU OLD CONVERSATIONS WITH SOMEONE WHO U USED TO BE CLOSE WITH